start and ending..

on 1st Oct night,
i and others classmate planing to make surprise for her birthday on 2nd Oct..
the plan was success..
that night, i'm very happy because see her smile and happy face..

that was my first time celebrate others birthday..
next day, i'm hope can make her more happy by taking her and her friend dinner..

unfortunately, i'm making a big..big..n big mistake..
i cannot control my attitude..
i suddenly in bad mood after hearing something that..........

i have ruined her special day....
i don't think my apologize will make her smiling again...

semua bnde nie brlaku dlm sekelip mata je...
my bad...
ak x thu nk wt cm mne...
knp ak still cm berharap...
berharap...n berharap...
yg hanya akn smakin melukakan diri sndiri....

final year

pejam celik pejam celik,
dh dkt 5 thun ak blaja dr diploma smpai la degree skrg.

byk kenangan pahit n manis d harungi bersama ngan kwn2 sewaktu diploma dahulu.
bila dh msuk degree, majoriti dh ikut haluan masing2,
de yg smbung blaja kt uthm, utem, unimap, uitm n byk lg..trmasuk juga kt utm..
de jgk yg dh kawin n bekerja..

kalu bleh, smua kenangan itu trsemat d sanubari smpai bila2...

time ak dh mula smbung kt degree nie,
ak cm trlebih rajin sikit drp biasa..
ini kerana ak de trtarik ngan sorg prmpuan yg skelas ngan ak..
kitorg slalu stdy same2...siang or mlm..

smakin lme perasaan 2 smakin menebal..,
tp apakn daya..ak slalu make a mistake..
yg mmbuatkn hati dia slalu terguris..
ak time 2 mmg xde niat pn..
mgkn sbb ak xde pngalaman psal hati n prasaan..
2 yg slalu careless...
nk wt cm mne...nasi dh jadi bubur..

bnde dh  xleh nk ubah..
dia pn dh anggap ak sbagai kwn je..as a bestfriend,,
walau cm mne pn, prasaan ak kt dia still ade..
nk xnk trpaksa trima smua nie..
walaupn hati trase sedih n pedih...

ade sorg mmber ak nie phm ngan keadaan ak...
n dia slalu pesan kt ak sruh move on...
ak dh cuba smua 2...
maybe it's take a loooong time to overcome it..

walau cm mne pn...
i'm trying to make her happy...although it will make me crying inside..
i don't know what i'm trying to do is right or wrong....hmmm..